I'M BACK!!!!

It suddenly dawned on me that I've never been really happy with my life. I know what I want, but when I try to achieve it. Nothing will happen. Seriously, when did you ever see me really happy? I wear a smile on me face every morning to show my family& friends that I'm happy. But I'm not. I live my life like I'm a record. Its plays, and I go with it. I always act cheerful, gives people the impression that I'm happy when I talk to them. In fact, I'm really hurting inside. I don't have the habit to tell people what I'm unhappy about. Because I think, nobody bothers. I don't like my life, thats why I made that decision. I want to be a normal teenager. Not one that is forced to grow up even faster than her friends. One that is pushed out into the society when her friends are still having their childhood. I just want to be AUDREY PANG minus all the grown-up bits details. And so, I will just be a student. (: I will resigned. Sorry, teachers&others.I'm really not suited for it, your high expectations just scares me. But I will still continue to be there. Being that butterfly in the forest, as you guys put it?